Thanksgiving

I hope you all had a happy Thanksgiving and maybe a good black Friday for those who care to go shopping. I had an ok thanksgiving as far as that went. I mean I went to a dinner for my husbands side of the family instead of mine being that we live a few hours away from my family and we alternate holidays with the families. I really didn't want to go because of my hubby's brother and his wife who I knew we would get into a fight with, but in the end I went only to find out they didn't go because we were there. Lucky me. I mean I'm not the type of person who argues with other people or talk bad about them, but our fight started with them trying to live with us and not help pay any bills and because we refused to let them take advantage of us they got mad and started bad mouthing us. So that is why I know we would have got into a fight because they would have said something out of line.
So I was doing ok when we got there then the kids started showing up, most of them under the age of 5. Being that I love kids I'm hurting because I don't have any of my own and have been trying. Well needless to say one of my husbands aunts whose son just had his second child a month ago walks up to us holding the baby and says "See this, this is what one of these looks like." "When are you going to have one of these?" It took a lot in me not to run off crying and having everyone looking at me like what is her problem. Instead I said "I had a miscarriage a month and a half ago," very quietly and then she says "I'm so sorry I didn't know." and walks off. Of course she didn't know I didn't tell anyone except a few close friends and family. I thought I was going to be ok, but the before dinner conversations consisted of baby talk and what not so I had to leave the room before someone asked that question again and I started crying. Now I'm afraid to spend Christmas with my family because of this being that I know someone is going to ask that question. If only I could get pregnant and it stick.